ONE YEAR & 6 days

It just feels like I just went in for labour, time has passed so fast.. Sai Laxshika has turned ONE !

Yes things has changed since the time she was born, it has got even challenging..
She has got 6 teeth, her 1st two were her vampire tooth.

She started walking on her birthday. She still is in the zombie mode of walking, not really stable but for a matter of fact I know its not going to be any easy LOL!

Her first word was at 8 months (tata) meaning grandpa, she can now say amma (mother), akka (sister), mam mam when she's hungry or thirsty.

She's growing up very fast and is getting very beautiful, takes away all my pain n sorrows with her cheeky smile.

Next one on the way !!!!!

Now don't get into any conclusion reading the tittle  !!!!!!! This post is nothing else but a grumble about our culture's myths and beliefs. 

• When you're newly  married, you put on a few pounds and people go like " Hey Divi, you put on weight, pregnant ha ?
• When you're newly married and lose weight or look pale, people go like " Hey Divi, looking pale, enna morning sickness ha ??? 
• When you're newly married and look normal, people go like " So, any good news on the way??" ( while rubbing your tummy !!! )

DEAR AUNTY MISS SIBUK !!!

1. I know I have put on weight !!! its because I am EATTING ALOT !!!!!!
2. I am looking pale because I'm just recovering from food poisoning !!!
3. Can I throw back the same question on you @ a funeral ???

I truly believe that having a child is not in anyone's hand, it's all in God hand. Having a child is a gift from God. You may get it immediately after your marriage, or after a few months, or maybe after a couple of years. So don't go around pushing people on if they are pregnant or not. They surely will inform the whole world if they are! So just chill and watch some serials till they inform you the good news !

Coming back to this post title !!!

Now that I have already gone thru the whole hell process of what newly married girls go thru, I thought iwas done, but NO!!!!!! 

Here comes "Aunty miss sibuk again "

• During Lax's 16th day prayer, broke the coconut during the ritual and there was a flower in the coconut "if that's what they call it". People go like " Waaaaa very goood la next one otw !!!"

•    Lax starts pulling her own hair, " Waaaaa next one coming soon ha !!"
•    Lax starts trying to put her toe in her mouth.  " Lax lil bro/sis coming soon I think "

AGAIN 

DEAR AUNTY MISS SIBUK.

1. Please note that my stitches has not even dried up yet !
2. All Lax need is her mittens on & EVERYBODY will be just fineeeeeeeeeeeee
3. You know what aunty, I don't think Lax needs to put in any afford for this.
4. AUNTY MISS SIBUK TOLONG JANGAN SIBUK

OMG I Can go on and on about these myths and beliefs !!!!!!

WHAT ABOUT ME ?

Pheww life has never been this hectic.. it's true that people say mothers are superwomen !!! Juggling everything work, home, family, & BUNDLE OF JOY !!!! 

Me: So when will I have time for me ???
REALITY : ME ???????? WHAT ME ??? WHO ME ???????? THERE'S NO " ME,MYSELF & I " anymore in life !!

Yes ladies !!!! once the bundle of joy arrives there's no time for yourself. You often miss your meals, no more singing in the shower time, you hardly find time to sleep, you become outdated in latest movies. "ENNATHU ???? ROBBIN WILLIAM SETHUTHARAAAAAAAAA ???????".
We intend to completely focus on nothing else but our bundle of joy.

But is that right ??? Just take a minute and think of our mother's life, it has always been about others and never about them. I wouldn't wanna lose myself. So I have decided to slowly change my lifestyle. I make sure I have my meals ( healthy ones ), After putting Laxshika to sleep I do my skin care routine & etc it's all about finding the time for yourself. Though she STILL doesn't have her day naps. She goes full time on her night sleep. Only wakes up for her feed n that's it. The key of having time for yourself is to be SELFISH. LOL ! Don't I sound wicked ??????? Naaaa !!!

Thank God I have my " MOMMIES GANG" on WhatsApp to keep me accompanied the whole day !!! Makes me feel like I'm not the only odd one out there. 

The Long Waited Arrival

FINALLY OUR PRINCESS HAD DECIDE TO POP OUT ON THE 18th of JUNE 2014...

It all started at 2.45 in the morning. When I was woken up from my deep sleep by a POP of water oozing out of me. I jumped out of the bed and rushed to d bathroom only to see my panty soaked wet. I had a huge doubt if it was my water bag or pee. LOL. Came & sat down on the bed wondering what to do next...looking at my husband fast asleep..I was wondering if I should wake the whole house up or to wait till morning, but then I remember reading some horrifying stories on the net.

So I decided to wake my husband up and when I woke him up and told him what had happen, with his 1/2 sleepy face he woke up and we both rushed down to make a coax and wake everyone up. As I thought everyone did jump up and started to get ready. Had a good hot water bath and we rushed to the hospital. Good thing that I packed my bag in advance and left it in d car, so all we did was just jumped into the car & drove to the hospital.

Reached the hospital around 4 a.m, got myself admitted and straight took me to the delivery suite. They started preparing me for the delivery, at 7 a.m they induced me thru I,V . Apparently you have 24 hours to deliver after your water bag breaks, but the doctor does not wait that long to avoid complications. So yeah they inserted the I.V and at that moment the only pain I had was d I.V . LOL

They checked my if I was dilated and I was not. Nurse told that it may take 6 to 8 hours for 1st delivery. Pain started slowly coming every 15 minutes once which was stilll bearable. By 10 am " I think " the pain started kicking in. It hurt so badly in "my"...you know ;) They nurse gave me the gas to inhale if I could not bare d pain, started using it after sometime.. At 11 a.m I was dilated 5 cm. and  from that very quickly to 8cm and then 10cm

At 12 p.m I started pushing. As much as I was in pain I tried my best to keep calm and was praying thru out the time, Pushing was hell.. I was really lucky enough to have good supportive nurses throughout the whole process. 

At around 1,20 p,m the baby finally started to crown and MY OH MY that was the peak of PAIN. Thank God doctor came in just in time, I was in the situation "GET HER OUT NOW" !!!!! Where else he was like "HI HELLO WHAT'S THE STATUS NOW" !!! Lol it was just so funny !!! So yeah he came in and checked and got dressed and laid open his bag of surgical scissors which was like my makeup brush set LOL. Picked one and started cutting me alil. 

Finally at 1.24 p.m she popped out !!!!! That was THE MOMENT. I have no words to express how I felt. The pain just vanished. I could not take away my eyes from her. She had her eyes wide open looking all around. I started tearing at that moment. Really such a beautiful moment it was. I can never ever forget the whole experience in my entire life. Just a over night total change in life. 

P.S : TOOK ME 16 DAYS TO FINISH THIS POST !!!!

Messed up Hormones

I'm 34 weeks now and day by day I'm becoming super emotional & my moods are swing from EAST to WEST all the time... huhuhu !!! I really pity people around me especially my husband. So much of drama by me. Sometimes I myself don't know what's my problem haha... I'm thinking too much as the day gets closer as I'm planning to settle everything before going in for labour.

I have started getting "false contractions" almost once a day. It's normal to have those now as long as it doesn't get much intense. Every time I get it, it's spoils my mood & makes me restless. Nothing much about the pain but it's more of a discomfort. So whenever I get it, I prefer to be on the bed. Sometimes I just listen to some relaxation music or mantras just to keep my self & lil princess calm.

I get very edgy & irritated very fast. Sometimes I know my husband would be wondering if he should talk to me or even touch me hehehe...I get this great back ache often followed by rib bone ache when I sit up straight for too long. Sometimes I get bonus !!! Leg cramps or prickiness under my feet !!!!! 

Well as for today, it's been raining heavily and the weather is so cold, I just had a super warm awesome shower !!! NO ACHES "so far" So I decide to sit down & update this blog. 

So yeah...as I said, I'm 34 weeks now & I have 5 weeks and 5 days left till our lil princess arrives. Preparations for her arrival is almost done. I have finally packed mine & her things for the hospital.

My nervousness has reduced & I just can't wait to have my lil princess in my arms and to kiss her forehead softly <3

hmmmmmmmmmm ok I guess that's enough for today !!!

I Need My SuperWoman Suit !!!!

Since I'm in the midst of shifting my salon to a new place, My head feels like it's about to burst !! I have lot more to pack...the worst thing is I have to do it all alone :( I have no assistant at the moment. My bridal classes are put to hold, I have taken a brake from my bridal appointments. The new salon's renovation will begin mid of May which is less than 2 weeks away. My husband is going in for a minor dental operation at the same time !!!! Oh My !!!!!! I have to finish up all the packing by end of May. So that I can peaceful rest and prepare myself for our lil princess's arrival.

God needs to provide me with all the strength to do all this in a short period of time. Thank God our lil princess's crib is "almost" ready. So 'as for now' I don't need to worry much about it.

I hope, or should I say I HAVE TO recover asap after my delivery to get back on my feet to start running my business once again. Well I have no time to follow the "pantang" period as if I am going to do so, I won't be able to pay my bills, LOL !!

I plan to start operation my new salon somewhere midst of July, so I have to set everything up by then. I know it's goinna be super stressful period, but I have no choice but to face it. I know that All Mighty has my back !!

I can't wait for these few months to fly away !!! I need all the positive vibes and my Superwoman suit !! 

The Beginning of a New Life

I am now 32 weeks pregnant and currently in my third trimester. This 32 weeks ( 7 months ) has passed just so fast and now the feeling of me being a mother REAL SOON is coming closer. I have started experiencing "Mother Nature's" way of getting me ready for the sleepless nights !!!!! LOL !!! I hardly get to sleep at night of lately. Which is what has triggered me to start my very own blog.

The good thing of this whole pregnancy of mine is... I HARDLY PUT ON ANY WEIGHT !!!!!! Infact I have lost almost 5kg thru out my pregnancy. Being a Indian !!! People around me keep saying OMG it's not good for u to lose weight and so on but as per my doctor's advice, as long as my lil baby's weight is fine I am allowed to shred those fatty away!!!!!! So Yay to me !!!! :p 

The sleepless nights has made me think alot, trust me when I say alot I really mean it !!! Incidents from the past, future plannings, current situations, unnecessary issues etc etc. Phewwww alot of emotions going on !! 

Sometimes I just can't sleep thinking of how my lil princess is going to look like...how she's going to smell like...how she's going to sound like.. hahaha all this makes me even more excited to meet her. Whenever my aches become unbearable at night, I would just divert my thoughts on her & my aches would just vanish away <3

Well, I'm glad I started this blog as I have been waiting to do this for sometime, something totally different from my other blog !!!